It's true that where we are now was once a dream, a vision for the future. Perhaps we're not exactly where we want to be, but we continue dreaming and continue putting energy towards that goal. I'm reminded lately of how much of my dream I've actually lived. Although I'm not a graduated surgeon, I've lived the dream of operating on patients and for caring for them. I've also dreamt of a happy family and although we have our ups and downs, we're doing pretty amazing. I've dreamt of living on a house on the lake, with an art studio and a solarium and, although we're just renting, here we were. So often are we focused on the future that we forget to enjoy the present. Last night, fearful of my own death, I became angry towards those closest to me, those that are helping my dream come to fruition. In that moment I was so scared about what suffering lay beyond that I made my present self suffer, and those around me suffer. I'm not perfect. I deserve to cry and let out that anger and frustration. I just have to remember to do it in a more healthy fashion, but also not to feel guilt and shame when I do it imperfectly. Namaste. #forgiveness#dreams
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